my diary...

happy birthday boy!!! checking out your orkut... hold on...
i feel llike putting on...
"boy..i really love you and miss you.. see this is what i had been waiting for... couldn't you hold on till now? i allways wanted to be the first one to wish you tonight.. to tell you.. here begins the 17th year of your life... i guess i didn't deserve you! You know i had been waiting since long.. you dont know how much i love you... n how much i miss you.. you never told me from where did this 10th jan come into scene as your b'day, coz its always been 20th jan... i always wanted to be your valentine.. awaited this date like hell.. hope we could have spent just some more time together so that i could've told you, how much i loved you..."
but all that i've put on is ... 'HAPY BURDAY.. MISS U..'

i remember every second that i spent with you.. it is a life time memory... you used to say that i ve got a gud voice... may be i could end up being a singer! remember you DUKHI AATMA fairy tales?? wen i used to ask u if you were sad and u used to say that you were really very happy!
i love to live with the fact that we completed each other...!!

well... you remember, something you brought for me from shimla?..... wish i could ve put something in the bag, when you came to collect the stuff!... wish dat, that day could've lasted longer... i miss you kitkats boy! i really fancied eating them!

tomorrow you shall get my letter! things may seem bad when you look at'em as in me not sheding much tears.. the real reason is m scared of crying... and after a point i can stop myself and jus go on concentrating that "i gota be breathing"....!!!! this stops me from crying!

i remember you went back as someone was waiting for you at your place.. wish i could've kissed you then instead of saying a goodbye... wish those badminton matches could be brought back now.... wish i could've seen you again staring at my rangoolis wen they were complete and could have heard your words... wish those phonecalls, stupid reasonless meetings could have lasted longer... wish i could betray science and the world and could just be with you... wish could bring you back.... n create a world where there was just you and me......

everything's incomplete without you... my branded n clean shoes are waiting for someone boy... wish i could ve shown you chamcham, blue shirt guy n black shirt guy... and together we could ve concluded that they actually stand no where in front of you...


somewhere in the sky, the angels are rejoicing as they own you now... but remember boy, you are, you were, and you shall always be mine....!!