my diary...

i took bath, after i dont know how many days... and went ahead to see god... today is your's and goddess saraswati's b'day... lucky huh? blessed in studies boy?... u shall always be... this was the first time i faced every god and told each of'em that i was the luckiest person to be blessed with a friend like you... thanked'em and asked'em to bless each one of us with friends like you... for people like you create heaven on earth! then g'z and s'z friend soham showed up... this was the first time i wasn't concious about how i looked... instead i was pretty jealous... to see thati didn't have you beside when they had someone! i know its wrong... but at times, you cant help it!!!

in the gurudwara... the last time i came, my resolutions had kept me outside but this time i felt like god was shreiking at me saying ' its always the way i want it! when i wanted you inside my house, i killed your friend, to get my thing fulfilled...!!! ' i feel he took you away to make me realise how bad n wrong i was ... all the time i restricted mself from entering temples and gurudwaras as i felt unwelcomed for i owned a boyfriend, was wrong... and that i neda be punished for this... and then when it was me who was to be taken away, he took you... MISTAKENLY!!!


praying to god to send an angel for me,
the onee who'll bring back the smile
on my face which is not fake,
and not just for other's sake...
da one who'll stop these falling tears saying
'm dere for you dear' the one who'll take me
to the world of love n happiness from this
world of lonliness... oh god! my friends have
left me alone so there is no one of my own,
so please send my angel fast... or else,
this poem shall be the last....